Michelle...

For once in about a week, i was able to relax from uni. Seriously, after yesterday's exam, i didn't really get to rest that much, since it was kinda late in the night.

So today, woke later than i would have normally, still pretty early, 9 am, 'cause i found out that May was also going over, and she dragged Tim with her so yeah i got a ride from him to Michelle's. So we were there by 11, and just chilled. I actually had to talk to Kathy to sort stuff out. It was only the 5 of us there and yeah it was pretty cool.

Well yeah i have been saying that i will tell everyone what's going on with Kathy and myself, and yeah since we have talked over it, and she has been reading my blog and said that yeah i could blog it, i am right now. What happened that sunday was that we were all just bumming around and stuff, chatting, etc. Then, i started talking to her just to see how everything is with her and stuff like that. Well from that, the convo kept going and then she actually asked me out. Now i was taken by surprise by that, 'cause everyone thought that she liked Alex, 'cause that's what she told us at the time, which was about 2 months before the bbq. So thing is that i didn't really like her in that way, so i rejected her then and there. It really was the only thing i could do and i did. It's also been one of the things that was on my mind alot and that was fucking me up.

So yeah she was sad obviously and stuff, i tired to give her comfort but yeah i was the last person she needed it from and stuff. So after i said no, she was pretty depressed for the rest of the bbq, and everyone knew that the 2 of us were alone talking for a while, so everyone started to ask what i said to upset her and stuff. Eventually, she told everything and yeah everyone started to hate me and stuff, calling me insensitive and slack. I really couldn't do anything anyway. Luckily for me, it was Tim who reminded everyone that she did say she liked Alex a while ago, and didn't mention to anyone else any changes. So everyone got off my back and just sympathised with her and stuff.

So yeah that's tied in with what i mentioned here, (the last post on the bottom of the page) and that's what i meant in that message. More to the point, the reason why this was screwing me up was that she wasn't replying to any of my messages on msn and not replying to my sms'. So i was like "Shite, have i screwed her up that badly?" 

So yeah i really needed to talk to her, and i did, and i got stuff sorted and yeah everything's cool now, well i think it is anyway. She said she needed time to herself and just to get away from everyone. She didn't turn up to anything the past 2 weeks until today. So it was good just to get that off my chest and try not to worry about her anymore.

Apart from that, it was just a catch-up session 'cause i missed out on Janice's b'day thursday night 'cause of the exam and church. She knew that i had exams so yeah understood me. I'm so sorry for not turning up anyway. Hope you liked what we all got u!!! So found out about some stoopid, stoopid things, *cough* Jason *cough*.

But Michelle had to leave for work at about 3, so we all left then, got home, then called Lucy just to catch-up and trying to see if she's going anywhere tomorrow. Called Bo after that, caught-up and stuff, not too much to report there.

After all that, came here and now just trying to get stuff sorted with a few people and trying to figure out if there's anything on tomorrow.

So tomorrow i could be going to etiher my church or Kev's church, depending on what's going on. Also, gotta finish up on qma/qmb/micro work as well...