Teaching

I don't have a clue what went on there today. We just had a sudden influx of people today and now the class' bigger, from like 6-7 people to 11-12. Poor, poor souls. Why i say that is that i'm "responsible" for looking after them.

Today, as i said last night, i was thinking about either going to Kev's church 'cause he was gonna be the MC today @ his service. But what happened in the end was both our fault. It was his "fault" because he said he was too disorganised for it, and it was my fault 'cause i didn't leave him enough time to. Sure he did have about 2 weeks to get everything sorted and such, but yeah with his life right now as is, yeah it's kinda hard for him to do so. I mean yeah he's got alot to balance atm, and with uni starting, he's got even more to balance. Comes back to time management again.

I did go for the last minute confirmation thing and yeah, since i needed to know an answer right then and there and he couldn't give it to me, i had no choice but to pull. Reason why i had to know then and there was 'cause i needed to tell the other teachers in my class if i was gonna turn up or not, and since it was almost 9, it's kinda late for calls anytime after that.

So yeah i went to church, sat through service talking about wisdom and where we get wisdom. Pretty interesting talk. So after that, had to go teach my class again. So during the singing thing, it's like 4 people turn up outta nowhere and some adult tells us that they're part of the year 1 class now (which is the class i teach, cute kids though). So yeah our class' grown a bit and stuff, so more people to, well, suffer under me. So taught them for about an hour, then left and had lunch with parents.

After lunch, they went shopping, so i was dragged along, but fortunately for me, i decided to sleep, so i caught up some sleep from this morning's deprivation. Came home and just been on trying to sort more stuff out with people.

I was supposed to do micro/qmb/qma work right now but yeah i'm too lazy. So i'll do some qma work later tonight.

Just been listening to some songs on the radio (Yea since kazaa's down, been forced to go back to the radio to listen to new stuff) and started listening to Killing Heidi's I am. I found some of the lyrics and yeah the chorus really does suit me right at this moment, well most of it anyway:

I am, out on my own,
Moving in shadow, nobody knows who i am,
Standing alone,
And that's me, but you can't see, waoh oh

Yeah the "nobody knows who i am" part isn't totally true, i mean yeah alotta people don't really know me, but there are some who do, and obviously it takes time to know someone. I just feel that yeah it does suit my situation right now and stuff, what i feel and all.

I thought that recently, with the Kathy stuff, the exams, assorted small issues and birthdays, i was pretty screwed in the head 'cause i had to juggle that along with uni work, uni itself, church teachings, and church committees. That's not including just people's stuff in general as well as my family's. So yeah i thought it was getting better after the exam finished, sorting stuff with Kathy and getting rid of some smaller issues. Recently, i've just been thinking about what i've been doing and such. Figured out that yeah i'll never have a time just to let everything go, even though i've had quite a few chill-out sessions. There'll never be a time for me to totally let go. Every single day, i'll have something to worry about, something to think about. It's never that i'll have a day where i don't have anything to just worry about, just days where i don't have as much to think about. These recent times have just been hectic for me really.

So yeah, just been moving along really, nothing too much to really make me freak that badly. I'll always have problems, just that i won't realise it for a while i guess.

Anyway, tomorrow, got the 4 groups of fuckers tomorrow with my qma class, and the qma tute. I've actually started to like the tutor. Sure he might be boring and stuff, but actually, he can teach well and we actually do get something outta it. So yeah tute's not that bad these days, but yeah the 4 groups of fuckers is still a concern to me i guess. Oh well that's my life i guess, a hectic concern...